The Beginning- I Did it!
A blog! I did it, I started my very own little blog. And I’m feeling pretty darn proud of myself even though I’m only a few sentences in. Something about those first few steps toward a goal you’ve had feels SO good. If I’m being honest, I’ve had this little nagging desire to start a blog, online space, whatever you want to call it for YEARS now. Years before our sweet Piper was born (and she’s 3!) I just felt like I had a voice to be heard and words to share, but couldn’t push myself out of the comfort zone of Facebook or Instagram. Those were safe and easy, didn’t really require any effort and certainly not anything organized. I didn’t have to dedicate time to them. Things I shared just stayed amongst a group mostly made up of friends and that was comfortable.
Over the course of my life I’ve learned that I’m not one to push myself outside of my comfort zone. I hate competing so I never did anything competitive growing up because I never wanted to lose. So rather than risking anything and losing I just never participated in the first place. And unfortunately, that’s something I’ve carried with me into adulthood. If I think there’s a chance I won’t be good at something or I may fail I simply don’t even start it, therefore saving myself disappointment. And then I became a mom. And LORD help all of us moms out because holy moly, being a mom can feel like the most defeating competition of all time. I spent the early months (or maybe even year) feeling like I wasn’t good enough. I put myself into a safe little bubble and just did what I needed to, but never much more. I wanted more and wanted to set goals for myself and achieve them, but just couldn’t bring myself to take any steps toward them because I didn’t want to disappoint myself by giving up. But then there was a light at the end of that tunnel and I realized that was no way to live. I started to stop the comparison game and at least think about my goals and slowly started to do things for myself that made me happy.
So back to blogging- this space has really been a little dream of mine that just started to rise up higher and higher to the surface until I couldn’t ignore it anymore. It feels silly to say it out loud, because it’s just a blog, but the fact that I’ve put something I have felt so strongly about for so long into action feels amazing. I truly just want a place to share pictures, projects, talk about anything and everything, and really just share a little of our lives. Even if I end up being the only person to read everything, I’ll be glad I did it because it will all be in one place and it will mean I did something I wanted to do. I’ve even had this website name picked out for at least 5 years. I mean, that’s crazy you guys! Crazy that it’s taken me so long to believe in myself enough to put something out into the world.
My hopes for this space are simple. Share our lives and encourage you in some way when I can. I want this to be a place of honesty and fun. Inspiration and hope. Silliness and parties. I want to share our personal lives with you- because I believe God uses each of us and our stories to encourage others that are walking the paths behind us. And that can’t happen, we can’t be used for good if we don’t put ourselves out into the world just as we are- full of joy and fear and failures and triumphs. I have a voice and things I care about and want to say and share. So be prepared for it all. Mom life, party planning, DIYs, raw and honest stories, and probably organization and cleaning tips. Because I LIKE cleaning, okay? I told you I’m crazy, but I’m going for it.
xoxo, Jena