A Letter to You on Your First Day of Preschool

Today was your first day of preschool and I’m honestly not sure how we got here so fast. For so long you were just a dream of mine. A dream your daddy and I struggled to make come true. And then finally you arrived and our worlds just felt complete. You were this tiny perfect little baby and we knew life would never be the same. And then in the blink of an eye we arrived at this day.

How is it possible that yesterday you were that little sweet baby that needed us for everything and today we left you in a room with other kids and said, “We will see you soon!” You have become this (still little) girl that is kind and helpful and smart and independent and brave and gosh you are funny. You are absolutely amazing. We are so lucky to call you ours.

A lot of days you want to take on the world by yourself. We ask if you will be our baby forever and you reply, “but I want to grow up.” And my goodness is it bittersweet. I want to keep you little forever. I always want you to snuggle with me and hold my hand and stick to me like glue. Your little voice is my favorite sound and I don’t ever want to forget it. 

You are also shy and reserved around other people, but you are starting to come out of your shell and let others see what we get to see all the time. We brought you into your school today and you were nervous. You clung to us and said you didn’t want to stay. But you’ve been so excited for school and as much as I wanted to scoop you back up and take you with me, I know you are going to blossom and learn and make new friends. We told you how proud we were of you and how much fun you were going to have and then we walked out of the room without you. And then I definitely cried in the car. 

So much of me wants you to never change and just to freeze time. The other half of me though is so excited to see your future unfold. Each new stage of your life has been my favorite. I’ve loved every second of watching you grow up so far and I can’t wait to follow behind you as you become whoever you are going to be. The world is so big and I believe you can be or do anything you want. Your potential is endless and we are going to be here to watch and support you through it all. I know you can’t stay my baby forever and so little by little I’ll let you out into the world and watch you grow.

I love you so much. 

Love, Mommy